My Soap Box.. For the Week..

So the past couple of weeks have flown by, and I am starting to learn more and more about my new job. I love it! I don't think I have ever been so eager to get to work. My day goes by so fast, and I am constantly busy. There is something about working that makes you feel like you have contributed to society. After staying home for a few months and trying to entertain myself all day and night, I appreciate a day that I spend doing something that keeps my mind busy.

I can't wait to get our tax refund. I am so ready to pay off some bills and sit comfortably. I don't know what happened since Christmas, but it seems like these little white envelopes keep ending up in our mailbox asking for money. I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I have been sick. Marcus has been sick. Now we have all of these medical bills rolling in.. Oh geez. I really disagree with some of these charges too! I don't mind paying you doctor, but I sure remember a wait list when I called to make an appointment.. Doesn't that mean that you have several patients to bill? and isn't it unethical to charge ALL of them so much? You must have some expensive tastes! I guess that because this little town has so many people that receive state benefits, you charge extra because you think that we ALL have those benefits.. Not so much! I'm done complaining now.. I guess..

So after we receive our tax return, I am going to order Nutrisystem for Marcus and I. I'm very excited about it! It will be nice to not walk to the fridge and look for ten minutes with an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other.. I'm cutting that stress out of my life!

I have not only decided to cut the food stress out of my life, but some of the people stress as well. I had a long talk with my cousin Natalie last night. I think that I have grown up a lot over the past couple of years. Not a bad thing. I have some people in my life that are kind of stuck. I can't say stuck, because that would imply that I believe they will eventually grow up too. When I make a mistake, I tend to learn from it. Some people might as well be a wind up toy that keeps walking into a wall. I just don't get it. Sometimes I feel like I have a very small number of friends, but I would rather have just a few really good people in my life than to have people around me that I have to edit myself around. I think that having a friend is having someone that you can share things with.. without wondering if they are truly a friend. I hated high school for this very reason. Everything was so dramatic. I just never, ever, want to go back to that. I'm a grown up, that likes to have grown up conversations. I don't care about what someone wears, how their hair is cut, what they said about so and so.. I want a real conversation with someone.

I know I talk about my husband, A LOT! I rarely will complain about him. It's because, generally, we get along. We really do love each other. We do have our arguments, but it's not something I would put on blast for everyone to know. I have more respect for him and our relationship than to do that. I care about his feelings. I would never put him down to someone else. This means, I will not complain to you just because you love to hear about everyone's bad moments in life. I don't understand how hearing about something negative makes you feel better about your life. That is just crazy! The minute that you invite other people in your relationship by telling them everything that happens in in, is the same moment that you invite them to come between you. Why is that so hard to understand? When you have a relationship with someone, you should have it with them. I know everyone needs to vent once in a while, but you don't have to complain about every little thing that doesn't go your way. Believe me, no one even cares to hear it.

With that said, I think I'm done now.. :) Saturday: Marcus and I are both home: watching DVR'd TV from the past week: enjoying each others company: alone :)

Holy Geez..

My mind is completely boggled right now. I have to be patient with myself and realize that it will take more than one day to learn everything... Lord help me!

Work, Work, Work..

First day of work today! I'm so excited and most of all relieved to have a job again! I feel like life is getting much better. I have realized that I am just not a home body.. I need to see people and interact with people everyday! I know Marcus is excited that I will have something to entertain me again. He said he couldn't wait to hear about my first day, meaning, he can't wait for me to get home and find dinner for him :) The only negative is that he works a few hours earlier than me and I work a few hours later, but it will give us more money, which means we are getting closer to moving! I can't wait for the day that I can look in the rear view mirror and say so long...

Pretty, Pretty Please!

I have a job interview today.. Oh, sweet baby Jesus, please let me get this job! I hate looking for a job and this is a good opportunity for my family. The sooner we have a built up savings account, the sooner we are moving! AND WE WANT TO MOVE! Wish me luck!

Someone Please Pass This On :)

What is wrong with people? Sometimes I wonder just why exactly it seems to be acceptable for people to use social networks as a place to go to offend and disrespect others. If you are an adult you should know better! This isn't the place to air your dirty laundry or make hurtful comments towards others. I am so over seeing someone break down people so bad that they are on the verge of crying or even worse. I wish that just for once people had the natural reaction of being kind to others. Wouldn't the world we live in be so much better? I step back and look at our world today and am ashamed at what we have become. No matter what race, religion, disability, IQ, family background, etc. WE NEED TO HAVE MORE RESPECT FOR OTHERS!
I may not have voted for our President, but what he said yesterday stuck with me. ‎"We may not be able to stop all evil in the world, but I know that how we treat one another, that's entirely up to us, and I believe that for all our imperfections, we are full of decency and goodness, and that the forces that divide us are not as strong as those that unite us."

Testing out my phone :)

Snow Day, Fro Day

Today, I woke up feeling very comfortable. I'm comfortable in my home. I'm comfortable in my marriage. I'm comfortable in my skin.
Usually, to be comfortable in my skin is almost impossible. I am a pleasantly plump gal. I love having boobies, but the rest can just take a hike. I am currently thinking of ordering Nutrisystem, which I will probably end up doing very soon. I want to be healthy. I love the way I look in my mind. In there, I can be tall, curvy- but a thinner curvy, have skinny arms, nice thighs and a nice round rump! My butt is flat, yet wide. I hate it! I want to order Booty Pop Panties if that helps you imagine... I want all of these things, but like I was saying, today I am comfortable in my skin. I feel refreshed and new. My jeans are not fitting as tight, my face seems shinny and my nails are growing out nicely. Then I look up in the mirror and see my hair. My hair is everywhere. It's going to have to be washed and styled or just curled up everywhere in order for me to leave the house today. Taking a shower at night seems to be the problem here.
I love nothing more than to start the day with a shower, but on a cold, cold day I would rather pile on my clothes and snuggle up in Marcus's big man chair. I showered last night so that I could just get up and go, but the only way I can get up and go is with a fro. Oh the joys of being a girl with dry hair and a habit of tossing and turning a million times at night. Off to the hot rollers I go!

Ello Govna!

So I had started a blog and I never wrote anything that was spectacular so I just deleted all of my posts. I'm starting over. Not only over on this blog, but with a lot of things in my life.
I feel like i have changed a lot lately. I guess it's part of growing up. I find myself people watching more than I used to. I don't do it intentionally, but I find myself not participating in conversations with people that I love and care for dearly, but feel nothing in common with anymore. I feel like my life has changed so drastically over the past year. Being married has made me more aware of my selfishness and immaturity. I have grown up so much since I have been with Marcus. I don't think it's a bad thing, but it does make me more aware of other people who have not changed. It makes me ponder whether or not they will ever change and see the grown up side of life. I like beig more aware of other people and their feelings, not that I wasn't a considerate person before. I just feel myself really seeing people and their motives. Sometimes they're pretty and sometimes they aren't, but that's life.